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Gina- Liverpool

Absolutely made up with my @sootheboxcompany sent to me from a special friend. It has really picked me up and made me feel very loved. What a lovely idea. They are so thoughtful! I would definitely recommend to anybody!!!!!!!!

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Let's talk about suicide

Trigger warning: Suicide and suicidal ideation So the title is a bit of a giveaway, but this blog post is the whole reason that I wanted to be open about my illness. In the hope that I can use my experience to share some of the most important things, I have learnt along the way. I knew this would be tough to write about, but thankfully I am now in the right place to do so. In January of this year, I set a date to end my own life. Of course, I didn’t act out the plans, but that is mainly due to the interventions made by other people. The only way that I can describe how I was...

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How Can I Help?

The first time that I became ill was during travelling through South East Asia in 2012. A few months in, I attended a silent meditation retreat in Pai, Thailand. At the time, I was already struggling. I was having panic attacks but had no idea what they were. This was not the time to start a silent meditation retreat. I felt totally overwhelmed, I couldn’t eat and felt like I was a failure as ‘I couldn’t do it right’. I wanted the retreat to ‘fix me’, but you can’t undo years of stress through four days of being alone with your thoughts (funny that). I had heard stories of people going on retreats and ‘finding themselves’ or ‘finding enlightenment’, so when my...

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The Race is on to Get Out of the Bottom

I had to use a spice girl lyric as it popped into my head when I thought about this subject. So, the past week has been full of family and friends and it has made me realise how far I have come ( I had no panic attacks…. WOOOOHOOOO!) The only thing is after they leave and I am back to my life of recovery, I can’t help but will things forward. I want to be better and getting on with my life. Before I became ill, I thought that things were on track and I was heading in the direction. I can’t help but feel frustrated at times, but I know that it is OK to feel this way....

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